Wednesday, November 9, 2016

O Freebird, O Freebird, Wherefore Art Thou?

*** WARNING: Emotional post ahead! ***

Hello my friends, I am sorry that I have not been around.  There have been far too many tough things happening in my space right now for me to have been here.  But I have caught up.

On 10.24.16 the theme over at Every Inchie Monday was Pirates.  Here is my take on the theme.  I used an Emoji pirate.

 Then on 10.31.16 the theme over at EIM was Coastline.  I used an overview of a beach and a star fish.

 Also this week on 11.01.16 over at 2x2x2 the theme was Tangled.  For me it was a pretty elaborate one.  One I was excited all year to do.  I did enjoy the pattern but never again.

On 11.07.16 the theme over at EIM is Cloud.  This one is a nice clear sky.

I debated this post for quite some time.  Was I going to explain whats going on or not?  But I know that CStocks mentioned me and I am forever grateful for her prayers and beautiful words.

On October 21, my brother passed away.  He had cancer but cancer never had him.  He was an awesome man and I am so glad that I got to be a part of his life.  Mine is better for it.  The memorial service was beautiful and amazing.  My brother touched so many people and changed so many lives by just being himself.  I miss him tremendously.  I also would like to say to everyone reading this that if you have siblings that you don't get to see enough then change that before it is to late.  You can't get back missed opportunities.  

On the way up north to go to the memorial service with my daughter I hit a deer.

After getting back home I found out that the damage was more than the car was worth and it got totaled.  So I got a new car on the 27th.

Then, that Saturday, the 29th.  My mother passed away.  She also fought the good fight with cancer and it never owned her.  She fought until the loss of a second child (her first son passed away in 2012) was more than she could bear.  She and many other family members are all sitting in glory enjoying each others company without pain and suffering.  Praise the Lord for that.

I am feeling sorrowful joy.  I am in so much pain because I love my mom and brother but I am joyous at the fact that I will see them again.

One immense blessing was watching my brothers favorite team, the Chicago Cubs win the World Series.  It was like he was there watching and cheering on the loudest.  If you watch videos from the game and listen real hard you can hear him cheering on.

My Mothers funeral was beautiful and painful.  But out of the mouth of babes comes comfort.  My great-niece saw my pain and just calmly told me, "Don't think of her like she was and remember that she is not in any more pain.  She is in heaven and happy."  These words helped me get through the day and days to come.  What a sweet blessings she is.  

Lastly, cancer is an evil disease that takes way too many people from our lives too soon.  So please get yourself checked out and endure the uncomfortable tests with the knowledge that you can complain about how you hate the tests and how it isn't fair that men have it easier than us in that respect.  Remembering that you are alive and cancer free to be able to complain.  If you want click here to find out more info, donate or volunteer.

Thanks for stopping by.  I know it might not have been the normal uplifting post but God bless you all for reading this.  Have a blessed and creative week my friends and hug your family.


  1. Bless your sweet heart my friend! I had no idea you were going through such a horrendous time, and rest assured you are in my prayers! I lost my dad to Non-Hodgkins Lymphoma 2 1/2 years ago, and like you said about your brother and mom, he fought the good fight, but he never let it own him. I am also sorry about your car and hope and pray you weren't injured. One thing we have in common is I got a new car too! Have a blessed and beautiful week my friend, and I will be thinking of you often.

    1. Thanks Becca, My late husband had Non-hodgkins as well. Sorry for your loss

  2. Thank you for sharing although it was painful for you to put into words. I too have lost a Brother and both parents. I've had cancer 3 times and beat it for some unknown reason. I wish you peace.

  3. What a few weeks! Goodness. I feel for you. Know that you and yours are in the thoughts and prayers of me and mine. <3 yo .

  4. What a time you have had of late- my thoughts are with you! It's hard to lose family but 2 so close together is tough (I had that 2 years ago) and still you manage to share some of your beautiful bead art with us....the pirate is o so cute :-). Stay strong my friend, take comfort where you can, glad to hear that you have a new car to travel in after your encounter with a deer, that's something we see happen a lot around here.


  5. You have enough heartache to last a lifetime, you are in my prayers.

  6. A touching post and I am sure so many of us have lost someone near to us to cancer. Thank you for sharing your thoughts with us.

    Your bead week is beautiful as alwayts and always a joy.

    Thinking of you with love

    Chrissie xx

  7. I have missed you. What a tough time you have been having - you are in my thoughts. Some great inchies - hope your art is giving you comfort

  8. I hope as the days go on you feel a bit more healed. I have had so many losses in my family because of cancer and I understand how hard it must be, it never goes away, but at least we can begin to heal and look at the joys these people gave to us. Love and prayers to you always.

    1. Thank you Cathy. I am sorry for your loses as well. Thanks for the prayers